It's a dirty free for all

Wednesday, October 31, 2007
If I could choose again.

I finally went gyming today. LIKE FINALLY. say hello to toned muscle and bye bye fats. I promise myself I'll go again this weekend. since I went to eat supper at lagoon after gyming. just 4 sticks of satays and 1 coconut. must not make gyming a wasted effort =) pork satay rocks the most any day and time. the fats are ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL =) when you bite into it, the oil, haha. damn nice.

and I'm officially sick of ban mian after eating it two day's in a row =( and sick of parkway food court after like eating there for 5 times in the last 2 weeks. bedok chai tau kway sounds very enticing at this moment =)

Let's go play game on Friday after OP! I'm so freaking envious of those people who have already finished PW. don't like you all. =( changed my op script today again. I don't like pw anymore!

must go find my entry proof.

I miss you all people. We must meet up real soon. and bim, we must go shopping. go buy pretty dresses!

xx Loved At 11:19 pm
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Tuesday, October 30, 2007
If I could just be here

so hmm, didn't go training today cause my gastric problem decided to act up again. I absolutely refuse to stick a camera down into my stomach for a scope to see what's wrong. I don't want to know anyway. so spent the afternoon sleeping in beautiful weather. like really the whole afternoon from 2pm to 6pm. I really never realised that I was that tired to sleep for so long. and guess what, I feel sleepy now too!

I'm writing out my pw script out for at least the 3rd time. I'm so sick of saying our groundbreaker our groundbreaker, Louis Braille Louis Braille. and how I have to stop myself from rolling my eyes while presenting. at least it will be over and done with on Friday. then need to celebrate a bit. then maybe if I'm in a good mood during the weekend, I MIGHT just make myself sit down and TRY to read ionic equilibrium 1 for the first time in my life. yes. I think my chem is horrendous and I have ZERO idea about ionic equilibrium. leaving all the ionic E questions blank in promos was one of the greatest joys of promos.

I think I really must go running. If not will get fats, since only trained once this week. and all I've been doing is PW, tv, msn, shopping online... bad. and I'm actually going to cold storage at Eastwood later to stock up on food supplies (sounds like war), and then of course very conveniently buy strawberry chocolate donuts from munchy =D

there are abnormally lots of mosquitoes today. and i have no idea why I'm suffering from muscle aches.

Oh ya, good luck to all the A' level people!
Good luck fat fat. =)

xx Loved At 7:40 pm
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Sunday, October 28, 2007
catch a falling star and put it in your pocket

just watched princess diaries with my niece. it must really be like the 10th time I'm watching it since I actually know what exactly is going to happen next. but it really is still highly enjoyable and happy movie to watch. =)

as the US dollar exchange rates drop further, its getting harder to resist not buying anything online. CONTROL! not working really well at all. it's now SGD1.50 to USD1. ya, from SGD1.54 a week ago. not like it actually will make much of a difference since I'm not buying some $100 things but, haha, it's just knowing that it's cheaper that makes it enticing. wondering which colour eye liner to buy. there are like a million colours to choose from, okay, maybe about 10. I'm spending 10 mins of my life to decide which colour to buy, when I should be writing stuff and practising op.

I need to hit the beach for a sun tan. or on second thoughts, I should just lie in the roof garden on a deck chair and tan tmr afternoon =) and then go take a shower in the outdoor shower since I haven't tried it since it was installed last December.. (I'll probably be too lazy to tmr)

okay. I decided I can control myself and I'm NOT going to buy anything online just because of the exchange rate =) congrats to me! anyway I've been spending big-time money shopping lately, especially with my mummy last week and vivocity today.

someone please tell me how to delete people off facebook.

xx Loved At 10:57 pm
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Stop letting your imagination run wild.

I'm so freaking sleeepy. but I was waiting for I got no idea what, I think I was on some auto-pilot to make myself as tired as possible before deciding to go to sleep. If I manage to drag myself to go gyming in 8 hour's time, it will be a miracle. then need to memorise pw script by heart, think about some other stuff, and go out with my mummy. got absolutely nothing to do tmr night. so ya, pizza delivered right to my doorstep sounds great anyway. I'm bloody bored because all of you are either studying for chinese or doing pw, which I should be doing anyway. but, good luck to all you chinese people! then its OP on Friday. then bye-bye PW forever and ever and ever. =) it wasn't bad, it was just tiring.

oh ya. I totally forgot I went out today. had some sort of lunch with sihui and jom tang tang and went to shop around. realised that whenever I wear my stilettos out, what I expect to be of a short outing always becomes a long/very long one, and now my ankles are damn painful. I kind of deserve it anyway. and I'm going to make it worse by running on the treadmill tmr morning (or should I say later in the morning) and then maybe going vivocity and walk some more. so, the heels are going into the box till at least Thursday. It's going to be flip flops and flats and sports shoes for the next few days. NO HEELS. and for goodness sake, stop shopping.

may all my problems unravel themselves soon. like very very soon. I'm so tired of thinking about all of them.

tmr will be an even better day. hopefully =)

xx Loved At 12:13 am
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Friday, October 26, 2007
Its a happy day!

my op is horrible. because I can't seem to concentrate or bother to put some time into going to memorising my script. like very distracted by everything else. but I really really hope I'll be memorising it properly by Sunday 23:59. and I decided I want to get AAAA for A levels. ya. its random. haven't figured out how to transform my grades to that, but oh well, AT LEAST I decided to try hard to get it. its a start =)

today was a great day though! went to settler's cafe with sihui, belle and ben chia. and the games all quite fun (except the first one recommended by I wonder who... haha=) WE MUST GO THERE PLAY AGAIN SOON and we must go try the guns and money that game! sounds damn fun. and we actually played this intellectual game. I'm intellectual! you all have to admit ok. *big smiles* then sihui keep saying the intellectual game very boring (we wonder why=) then we kind of rushed back to school because of vita. and we walked like damn fast all the way back. muscle ache now =( then vita was fine since abalone did not come and talk as he kind of so-called said he would. at least the food was slightly better than the last time. then me, belle, aaron and maho went to eat prata at simpang bedok! and talk crap all the way there and while eating as usual. I'm freaking full now and I regret eating 2 pratas after having dinner just 2 hours plus before. but well, the one good thing about vita is that we all get to see each other properly and talk for like a damn long time and properly catch up with one another and not just like hi and bye. so.... love you all though you all absolutely bully me like free =)

oh ya, and darling jenny treated us to bubble tea today! love you too! (though you probably won't see this)

and YI FONG FONG! SORRY I FORGOT TO WISH YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY! SO,
HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY! HOPE YOU LIKE YOUR PRESENT DARLING! =)

xx Loved At 9:59 pm
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Thursday, October 25, 2007
ruined blog post

okay. don't know what to say. feel like life is back into a mess. not really mess in a bad way, just need to settle the things on Tuesday once and for all. get it over and done with. then forget about what a dumb dumb I was today. yes belle, FOR ONLY THIS TIME, I admit I'm the stupidest person on earth, for now. okay. now's over. no longer dumb. =) BUT I'M SURE I WON'T FORGIVE MYSELF TILL AT LEAST SATURDAY? haha. ya right.

was a greedy pig and wished 11:11 twice. haha. once on my comp clock and another on my hp. but it doesn't really count right? since I always wish the same 5 things EVERY time I see 11:11.

sometimes I just can't stand you, you know. keep saying and repeating and nagging and saying and repeating. like freak. my results are fine and just freaking get off my back about the results. like what is your freaking problem. when I'm getting UUUU then start scolding for all you're worth. so what if people get AAAA from promos. you all have no freaking life and I CHOOSE to give up AAAA for some life/entertainment/excitement/lots of other things. IF I WERE LIKE THEM, MUG EVERY FREAKING DAY FROM LIKE 10 MONTHS AGO FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG, GO TO EVERY FREAKING LECTURE AND TUTORIAL, LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND EVERY FREAKING THING, I'LL PROBABLY GET AAAA TOO. its not even like I'm not studying or anything. I hate you for now. fuck. thanks for ruining my day and tonight's sleep. and people who get all As from promos can go die.

xx Loved At 11:38 pm
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007
happy girl =)

"JC people are such a superficial people. "
cant remember who said that.

agree to some extent. but there are still some very nice friends and people. the kind that doesn't back stabs you =) and who will cheer you up no matter what.

This people are what I live for.

Love you guys. (haha, girls!)

11:11 is coming! =D

xx Loved At 11:03 pm
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looking back at you

woke up feeling very irritated due to the in flood of smses because of table tennis stuff. thought it was like 7 plus am but realised it was actually 1045am. so ya, any irritated-ness disappeared immediately. so started the day being VERY behind time since I was supposed to wake up at 9 or sth like that. didn't bubble bath, or scrub or put any mask. damn, but at least I bought my little brother's bday present online and manage to watch 3 episodes of Simpson's (realised how sadistic the show is=)

took bus 12 all the way to training. the bus ride was like Super long. so just stone in the bus and listen to the chinese songs from belle. I tell you, chinese songs are super emo. like listen until damn sad, but once you off your MP3 and return to the world, you're happy again. haha. just have to be able to snap out of emo-ness (esp since I don't exactly have much to be sad about). And we all grumbled that training at kallang is soooo very inconvenient. like A levels quickly go! then we can go back to school and have nice trainings with clean and nice toilets with mirrors to bathe in, can you believe that the kallang place doesn't even have a single mirror in the whole place. and nice vending machines that sell bandung and bus stops that are actually near to school. unlike the kallang one walk until tired.

and today, while on the way to training, I saw Bus 11. and I laughed. like how ironic is that. you know how people always say bus 11 = walking. THERE IS ACTUALLY A BUS 11, at kallang.

just had a macs ice cream on the way home from training and my mummy fetched me home =) and I think we're going to go have another macs ice cream later! ITS CHEAP AND YUMMY. good for people like me who cannot afford to go broke again.

realised also how actually a lot of people are like me. if there's something I'm totally not happy about or if I'm actually angry or upset about somebody or sth, I'll actually say I'm fine. haha. found 2 other people who are like that too. Amazing. but don't you think it's quite strange if someone asks you "are you alright?", then you say "no, I'm not alright." somehow I think the person who asked would be quite taken aback?

okay. back to PW and maths tuition tmr. *dances around singing "pw's going to be over!"*

xx Loved At 7:03 pm
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007
lalala

tomorrow will be a stay at home and be happy day =)
and I realised that the list of "things to do before 2pm" for tomorrow is very bimbo-tic. but oh well. who cares!
1. paint finger and toes nails
2. go running to lose fats
3. put face ex-foliating mask
4. remove hard skin on the bottom of feet
5. put hair mask
6. have a hot bubble bath
7. eat the sugar biscuits and strawberry pocky

and of course there are the more normal things like memorising pw script and gp work as well as fill in many forms for the umpire course thing.

then training at 330pm to 6pm at kallang tmr.

NO MORE KFC FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH.

xx Loved At 11:24 pm
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Monday, October 22, 2007
just something.

Its days like this where I really wonder how I manage to live through all this shit week in week out or how I survive disappointments now and then, this week or the next. and then I continue to think how horrible it is to have both hit you on the same day and how I manage to force out a smile that will make everyone believe I'm perfectly happy.
I think I'm so amazing.

And then I remember that I actually said I like my present life. Its past tense now. at least until Wednesday.

you all should not be looking forward to Wednesday.

and neither am I.

xx Loved At 10:16 pm
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Saturday, October 20, 2007
the past. present and future

just got my ibanking thing sent to me. so I'm going to find something cheap to buy online and try it out =) and I'm actually buying much less things online now. congrats to me! I'm no longer addicted. I just OCCASIONALLY buy stuff online. and hence, I'm no longer very broke, and can afford to go out and eat nicer food. *smiles*

so me and belle went kaikai on Friday to bugis then to suntec (I realised how we always cover a lots of shopping places in a single outing) and had lunch at kenny rogers again! apparently belle says that kenny rogers is a real person? no idea. will upload our pics later =) corn nibblets are super yummy! and the corn muffins are wonderful =) chor lor queen once again was chor lor and dropped macaroni cheese on her skirt. this is so usual. eh, and the mess we both made of our chickens. and I soo love hienz tomato ketchup.

then met lilin in school and we went to my house to rot. like seriously rot. and wait for bimbo tifen, pamela and the twins to come! went to bedok interchange to eat dinner and it was such a dilemma to decide what to eat k. like I want to eat EVERYTHING. then after we played lots of mah jong and someone pangseh us. and being very hardworking (like real, but just imagine) lilin taught pamela chinese while I did GP homework at like 12 plus am till 1 plus.

and you can then imagine how sleep deprived I was feeling during the uni admin talk. luckily for sihui's many rabbit sweets and the book borrowed from the library, I guess I was awake more minutes than I was stoning or asleep. AND JENNY HAS SUCH NICE SHOULDERS TO LIE ON! like not too bony and its broad as well! next time got this kind of talk I want to sit beside jenny =D I chope you!

it's rather amusing, the things I've been hearing around lately. it's like you have no idea whether to believe it or not. one moment it seems quite true, and then you think again and say, "hey, its not really possible ya?"
-impossibly true? or possibly unreal?- I think I actually sound intellectual =D

I want to wallpaper my room =(

xx Loved At 4:29 pm
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Thursday, October 18, 2007
when I could have anything I wanted.

I realised that I could be happy for one moment, and be not so happy at all just 3 moments after that.

why is life like that.

you get things that doesn't really much matter to you but don't get the things that actually matter to you.

xx Loved At 10:44 pm
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
once again.

I wish for world peace.

okay. well. not really the whole world is necessary. just for the people around me will do.

everyone should be happy =)

don't worry. I'm totally not emo/depressed or anything right now. in fact I feel a bit high. =) =)

xx Loved At 8:21 pm
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total un-glam-ness

okay. I think I'm finally going to get my house key! (no need to laugh at me.) and I want a cute pink one. YES! and I think I kind of got official permission to go clubbing here. something said along the lines of "don't you get addicted to it too much and end up flunking your a' levels." oops. did someone mention A' LEVELS. I don't think I can imagine myself taking it. but oh wells, soon soon. now the last problem. I need some enlightening on how am I supposed to GET IN the club when my IC obviously shows that I won't be 18 till like 3 months later. that seems like a gigantalicious problem since I don't exactly have an older sister and my cousins need theirs to club too right. bad-unsolvable-at-the-moment problem. and I realised that my parents are actually quite strict with me. like how many of you just have to tell your parents something like "mummy, I'm going out and will be back late." and there are no further questions asked? good for you. but oh well. you can't have very nice parents and have them give you all the freedom you want too right.

oh ya, if you all haven't guessed, I'm sooo NOT bored now. in fact I wished I had, hmm, 2 more hours to sleep right now before getting out of the house to go training? and kallang is bloody far, I just realised. have to go to school first. then take bus 16. and both journeys aren't short at all okay. and I forgot to paste the cutesy wooden animals thing on the lockers today. nvm, Friday =)

off to sleepy land for 30 mins before training! =)

xx Loved At 1:34 pm
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007
while most of you are mugging pw or a levels

*WARNING. please do not read unless you're really bored, or you're ready to hear me grumble about lots of things for the next few paragraphs.*

I'm ultraliciously bored at the moment. I know I actually have a lot of things to do at the moment, but I'm not exactly interested to doing them, like doing pw OP, clean/pack my room, file all the messy notes. can you even believe that watching tv has become more of a chore and I have no desire to finish reading my story book.

I'm thinking of actually making brownies or some chocolate cake from scratch, like I usually do, except there are quite a few problems. the people I'll be seeing for the next few days seem to consist of the same few groups of people, my pw mates and vjtt team mates, and then I don't think I would want to have a plate full of pretty brownies only to feel guilty after eating them. haven't exercised since don't know when last week and I definitely do not need a sore throat which seems to be imminent. and then there is the high possibility that my arm will ache after all the cake baking and mixing, and that there is training tmr. so somehow, it doesn't seem like a good idea to bake anything today.

And then it's raining super heavily so it doesn't make any sense either to have a bubble bath since I'll probably feel cold half the time, and I'll probably fall asleep in the bath tub. but I don't feel like sleeping because I slept 13 out of the last 24 hours. Also, due to the rain, I can't go out anyway, not even a 5 minute walk to simpang bedok for a roti prata. what I think I really need are nice magazines to keep me entertained. ah, but then I'm broke remember. oh ya. so no spending unnecessarily. though it does seem quite necessary at the moment.

then on third thoughts, I'll probably remain bored for the rest of today and sit in front of the tv with a big bowl of ice cream. who cares how much calories it contains. It doesn't matter much after the frapaccino with lots of whipped cream yesterday. I really need some entertainment.

so here goes two quiz-like things. one kope-d from friendster (yes, I actually still go there) and another because of tifen bim.

W H O . W A S . Y O U R . L A S T

1. What did your last text message say?
- from sihui about ogl interviews: I hope the interviewers are nice=)

2. Person you hung out with?
- my pw groupmates =) sarah, jove and tian wei

3. Rode in a car with?
-my mummy

4. Went to the movies with?
-hehe. with peanut butter, jenny and sarahrah! mr woodcock

5 . Went to the mall with?
- my mummy and bro

6. You talked on the phone with?
- fat fat.

7. Made you laugh?
- the simpsons at 6pm on channel 18

----- -- -- -------------------- ------
--
--W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R.

1. pierce your nose or tongue?
- nose

2. Be serious or be funny?
- not serious

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
- whole

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
- both not great but get shot then.

5. Spend time with your parents or
enemies?
- no need to ask. =)

- ---- -------------------- ------------
-

. A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you love anyone?
- ya

2. Sun or moon?
- sun =)

3. Winter or Autumn?
- AUTUMN

4. left or right?
- left! (left handers are simply the best=)

5 . 10 acquaintances or two best
friends?
- two best friends

6 . Sunny or rainy?
-sunny

- ---- - - -------------------- --------
--
A B O U T . Y O U

1. Age:
- 17

2. Where do you live?
- lalala. on a little red dot

3. How many kids do you WANT?
- undecided for the moment

4. Do you want to get married?
- haha. yes, but obviously nowhere now

5. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut
it?
- twirl=)

6. Have you ever eaten spam?
- huh?

7. How many kinds of cereal are in
your cabinet?
- kokokrunch and frosties !

8. Do you cook?
- haha. ask my friends.

9 . Current mood?
- bored

--- ------- -------------------- ------

I N . T H E . L A S T .
48 H O U R S . H A V E . Y O U.

1.kissed someone?
- no

2. Been hugged?
- nope

3. Felt stupid?
- haha. no =)

4. Missed someone?
- a lot of you all

5. Danced Crazy?
- nope

6. Gotten your hair cut?
- haha, I wished

7. Cried?
- nope
------ -- -------------------- --------
-
-. S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched by the
cops?
- haha no.

2. Do you have a dog?
- yes, my toffee cutie!

3. Would you rather sleep with someone
else, or alone?
- I'm seriously scared of sleeping in the dark alone

4. Do you believe in ghosts?
- undecided once again.

5. Do you consider yourself creative?
- oops. no

on second thoughts, I'll leave bim's quiz for my next post. dinner's calling =)

and YES. there is training tmr. kallang at 4pm. and hopefully some kind of team dinner at kfc =) oh! how I love kfc even with the fats and oil =)

xx Loved At 6:26 pm
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Sunday, October 14, 2007
what I really want

I'm so bored at home, but I'm so tired that absolutely NOTHING will drag me out of my house. went to the beach this morning to bring my doggie to play. he's ultimately one of the joys in my life =) the way he prances around on the rocks, the way he jumps like a little deer in the high grass, how he has no fear about rushing into the waves and trying to attack the seaweed. I just sit around watching him and laughing to myself. he's such a cutie pie. then he'll run up to sit with us for awhile now and then and before long, he'll be running off to play in the water or the grass again.

then went to suntec to eat kenny rogers with my little brother and mummy, and then shop around because my brother wants to buy lots of stuff. and then happened to meet jom tang and her mummy at marina =) I finally bought my esprit shirt jenny! wanted to go play bishi bashi but once again, my brother became grumpy and wanted to go home, typical little brother behaviour, it was already a miracle that he lasted shopping with us for such a long time, so oh well.

I'm actually doing the gp vocab thing. isn't it amazing.

xx Loved At 4:44 pm
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Saturday, October 13, 2007
I love sleeping in big jerseys.

What to do with your oversized adidas jerseys? use them as pyjamas and sleep in them. the good thing is that its comfortable to wear and you don't exactly have to have wear shorts with it. Its like damn big/long/etc.

I miss you v12 people. we should have another gathering soon.

I am yawning uncontrollably.

I'm so bored, I need to find something to do that doesn't require money to be spent.

stupid fat fat.

xx Loved At 10:03 pm
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Please don't hesistate

I'm so sleep deprived. But I couldn't make myself sleep without re-painting my finger and toes nails, and then while waiting for them to dry, my mummy asked me to go out to eat supper. and who can say no to supper? so went to the lagoon and eat satay and lots of other stuff, with my mummy, little brother, and his two friends. then we even had to go to the supermarket at 11 plus to go buy flour so that my brother and his friends can don't know make crepes or sth for breakfast tmr morning. yes. crepes with cold ice cream early in the morning. once again, not something that I'll ever say no to.

and there's pw at 9am tmr. WAKE UP.

okay. then I really need to go to the gym and run or something tmr. training is not burning enough as I would have liked, and I should really call my coach to start training again. what a big slacker I've been so far since promos ended. must really start training full blast again. and good news, I've finally found the hotel, and kind of figured out the stupid rates. there are like 4 freaking different rates la. some internet booking, weekend staying, front desk booking and other funny sounding things. why make it super complicated... will tell you all when I get to see you all =)

STOP SHOPPING. I've gone broke for the 3rd time this month, and its not even half the month yet. Money kind of disappears. I shall camp at home next week and spend much less money. watch lots of dramas at home = FREE. but doubt it will work well, since wed have to go school and then have training and team dinner at kallang, then Friday have to go school and right after that have lunch and go training there again. So, shall forget about buying new heels. and stop buying useless things like cute locker locks, animals thing from spotlight, magazines, and don't even think about trimming eyebrows or going for manicures.

missed 11:11 twice again today.

someone please send me this song...

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

xx Loved At 12:03 am
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Thursday, October 11, 2007
Live well, laugh often, love much

I'm becoming an even more bad girl then I already am. didn't go for any lessons on Tuesday and pon half of school with belle today. we happily walked out at 1030am. if my mummy ever finds out, then haha. and we went home, cause I forgot to take my phone to school with me today and I freaking feel insecure without it! then we went to plaza sing at 1230 to buy some paint thing and we spend like a LONG LONG time trying to decide which colour (because belle absolutely has almost zero colour sense, and I couldn't decide which animal wood thing to buy!) then we decided to go tamp Ikea! yes. luckily Singapore is so small. you can get from dhoby gaut to tamp Ikea in no time at all. =) we spent 15 mins looking at cactuses and hmm, insulting a majority of them. but really, some really looked ugly and fierce or sth. then we went to eat the Ikea hot dogs. and here comes the unglam-ness. our dear chor lor queen belle, tried to throw our rubbish into the dustbin. haha. you know the kind of macs dustbin where you have to push the swinging cover thing to throw rubbish? belle actually tried pushing it and it didn't budge, because she pushed the bottom and not the swinging thing at all. then as usual we just stand there at laugh. first time is not me being the unglam one =) good change. then went for tuition at roxy square and went to buy muffins for you all! you all better appreciate them! cant understand why whenever I'm in a rush, everything just seem to crawl. went to bedok interchange and walked damn fast to catch a bus, with my mummy demanding to know why I'm still out and telling me about how my dinner is already cold. then the bus keep getting stopped at traffic lights and even when I walked home, also can get stopped because of big trucks going into the construction site near my house.

Since there is a full day tmr, I shall sleep very very late tonight =) some more fong fong lent me some hong kong drama to watch. haha.

xx Loved At 9:36 pm
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007
keep your smile and never let it go.

Once again damn freaking tired from training. I think it took lilin and I almost 10 minutes to walk up the overhead bridge and down again. bad muscle aches. and considering that I went to eat subway with jenny and fong fong at ECP at 11 plus, and went back to school only to go out with more people to parkway to drink bubble tea, and then had training, I don't think I want to wake up tmr. I do not want to imagine myself climbing to v34 tmr morning for tutorials, then down, and then back up again. then tuition tmr too.

I'm so mentally drained from worrying about so many different things. I'm such a happy person but there's just so much to think and worry about now. I need to shut everything out but the problems keep repeating themselves over again, and remind me that they aren't solved at all. But at least I'm still a happy girl at the moment =)

Did I mention that I don't exactly love calling up people that I don't know. damn.

xx Loved At 7:38 pm
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Tuesday, October 09, 2007
i get it

so training has officially started. and I finally remember how tiring training is. I still intended to watch tv till 12 yesterday night and sort out some of the mess on my table, but instead, I went to sleep at 1020pm. barely kept awake for the 9 o'clock show on channel 8 and didn't even bother watching house. the mental-draining just finished and now it's time for the physically-draining stuff though there's stuff to actually think about too. I feel so sleepy everyday and there's training tmr. I don't feel like knowing anything about bio chi-squared tests or anything. I just want a whole day to laze at home and sleep.

Philadelphia's cream cheese spread goes great with baguettes.
I wish, I wish, I wish

~~I get it. I know that you don't want to.~~

xx Loved At 2:33 pm
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Sunday, October 07, 2007
Back to training!

I feel like the most stupid person on earth.
I actually tried to turn off the air con with the tv remote control when I woke up this morning.

I don't want tmr to come.
I don't want to know my results.
I want to live in denial.

I'm so freaking bored at home.
But I refuse to go out cause I'm actually aching all over.
Someone please bring my brain out for a walk.

bim! quickly upload our pics from yesterday!

xx Loved At 11:22 am
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Saturday, October 06, 2007
I wish I could have a million more wishes.

I just went to facebook, and I tell you, this is damn cool. can you read it?

Only great minds can read this
This is weird, but interesting! This is a cool thing check it out.

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too
Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can.
i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it

damn cool. sorry to people who pokes or give me "gifts" on facebook. totally not in the mood to play with facebook anymore. tiring to return pokes. interacting with people face to face is much better.

and open house was as I predicted. just all the different CCAs and ourselves playing. and I think I totally high due to eating lots and lots of fox sweets. then bimbo tifen and I cam-whore like free (actually it is free) , and when the red coloured fox sweets finished, became super no mood. haha. some more chin yee and I go kope all the colours that we like. she only eats the purple one and I only like the red ones, so those we give people were all green, mint, yellow or orange. haha. =) then went to drink bubble tea with lilin after open house, by then we were like super dead but we still went to parkway to cool down cause it was super hot.

I've decided I shall be a nice person. No point getting all the bad karma =)

11:11 is coming!

maybe things were just meant to be this way...
I've accepted it long ago

xx Loved At 11:02 pm
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Friday, October 05, 2007
when you whisper into my ear.

vjtt @ orchard

I never knew searching for hotels online was such a freaking chore. you have to work within a budget, plus differentiate between stupid superior rooms, deluxe rooms, premier rooms, suites, and god-knows-what rooms. then of course you don't want to get a ulu hotel either, but you have to make sure the room is big enough for like 10 people. and then you get exorbitant prices like 400 plus which is WAY OVER the budget. I'm having a freaking headache over this. and then there are these funny promotions like weekend getaway promos, internet booking promos, family holiday promos, like how am I supposed to know, think just-tell-me-which-one-is-the-cheapest.

okay. I give up for today. I'll continue searching another day. still have to go make vjtt poster/banner thing for open house tmr. at least we finished our board in 15 mins today. like we're way pro. 15 mins to take down stuff and put up new stuff (which just consisted of many many photos). like what we said today, all the pictures either show us eating at different places (jumbo, fish and co, Swenson's in Bangkok, secret recipe), or cam whoring at various places (competition grounds, Bangkok, beach, can't rmb if we put up our sentosa photos.) the only one picture that actually connects to table tennis, is the photo for the school magazine, which was only put up last minute. haha. we should change our CCA name to cam whoring/eating club or sth =) so go see all our pretty pictures tmr! oh ya, and what am I supposed to do with the rest of the photos that we didn't put up?!?!

went to city link/suntec/marina square/plaza sing with jenny and fong fong after setting up the booth or whatever you call it. bought more stuff. hmm. come to think of it, I was the only one who bought anything, from 3 to 6pm. and jenny! why did you tell me about the esprit shirt?!?!!? now I want it too! =( must resist the temptation!

not looking forward to Monday. I do not want any results back. I'm so scared of what I'm going to see. Please don't fail GP. please please please. if not I got no idea what I'm supposed to do.

Back to training! in school. monday 430pm. wed 330pm.

shall ATTEMPT to start making your present tonight belle, while watching ghost whisperer =)

jenny went crazy at spotlight today.

and today's S cube thing was so oh-my-god.

I'm so addicted to the idea that I can make wishes at 11:11 that I refuse to sleep till I see 11:11 on my hand phone clock and make my wish. now I have eye bags and black eye rims. great =(

xx Loved At 8:26 pm
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Thursday, October 04, 2007
I want a stomach transplant.

I really really really hate my gastric problem.

I'm now practically living off medicine.

xx Loved At 11:37 pm
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the 9 o'clock show is calling me.

need to reach school at 645 am tmr. what an unearthly hour to reach school ya? YOU ALL BETTER BE THERE ON TIME TMR! haha. if not I'll be so loner early in the morning. might make me depressed. ya right. I can already imagine us rushing to put up all the stuff on the board tmr. and I can only find all my pink markers at the moment, so the whole board might just become pink unless I manage to find the rest of the markers. =P wish me luck. hopefully can go out tmr after assembly with jenny! I really really want to buy heels =( but tmr after assembly got to set up the stuff for open house. and need to settle some stuffs. I'm going to put my new locker lock tmr morning =) it's so freaking cute!

I think open house not exactly open house, why do I get the feeling it's like some like mix around for vj people to go play other sports, go eat ice cream, and get free stuff. haha. more like play-time rather than open house.

and I need to go find my gc. went to maths tuition today feeling absolutely useless without a calculator.

next week is the last week of school =)

and back to train, train and train.

I feel so loved again.

I remembered why I said yes.

xx Loved At 9:22 pm
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Wednesday, October 03, 2007
I'm okay, not.

I'm bored one moment at home, and I'm complaining about keep having to go out at the next moment. I really don't know what I want do I? right now, I'm in a bored to the max mood. I actually wish some fairy godmother or sth would appear on my doorstep and bring me to lala-land. Ask me again 10 mins later, I'll be telling you that I need to really spend 1 whole day lazing around at home.

so I tossed one-fifth of my clothes out of the closet this morning to make space for all the new stuff I have bought over the week, and for the arrival of my online shopping clothes, and realised I actually have 6 denim skirts. then proceeded to be almost late for my appointment at raffles hospital. now all I need to buy is a clutch/handbag, more heels, and a few other stuffs before I must really learn how to control myself from over-shopping. Will reel myself in hopefully, just not yet.

things I've bought in the last week
1. 2 dresses online
2. locker lock
3. socks
4. black top
5. pink flip flops
6. cute t-shirt
7. white capri
8. black denim skirt
9. 2 blouses with a cute vest
10. 2 necklaces
11. more hair clips

come to think about it, doesn't seem THAT much at all. at least I'm happy while buying them, though I feel the pinch after paying and looking at the balance in my bank account. =( sihui, you need to stop shopping too!

and I suspect I'm becoming bored of facebook. Its quite tiring to keep returning pokes and everything.
cant believe that I'm actually going for maths tuition tmr. ya, like tuition what? ah. probability? or maybe I'll try to just sit there and stone a bit.

and sorry belle, haven't gotten into the right mood to make your present yet. ooops. will get it done very soon.

at least I have you all =)

who will keep me warm when I'm feeling cold.
why do I still feel this way when I don't want to.

xx Loved At 8:51 pm
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Tuesday, October 02, 2007
dont know how to smile

I'm going to sit here till I think of how to make you feel better.

xx Loved At 6:17 pm
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Monday, October 01, 2007
i do not walk into poles

today is such a wonderfully fun day! we all got to see each other for like 10 whole hours straight! every time we gather like that, I just can't help it but realise that I SO FREAKING LOVE YOU ALL TO BITS! yup! so we went to ikea tamp just to eat meatballs, and then went to tamp mall to eat ice cream, and then to maho's house to slack/bitch/watch tv/movie/eat/talk/facebook/camwhore like free and tons of things! we totally talked for 10 hours and I don't remember any one time when there was no one talking at all =) realised that we all love to talk and somehow, we can all talk at the same time and still hear each other, it's a miracle.

Love you all darlings! sihui, belle, maho, ben, jom tang, foo (who abandoned us halfway=), tristan, aaron, zonghe! I wonder how we always have stuff to talk about every time we all see each other.
maho and Tristan better quickly upload all our cam whore photos like ASAP.

okay. so I'm randomly feeling like an extra nice person right at this moment. so I believe there are no such things as enemies, there are only people that you might not exactly like. but it can totally change ya? actually really getting to know people that you didn't know before really makes you see them in better light. somehow it just makes them seem friendlier/nicer/less foreign, if I'm still even talking coherently now. conclusion: everyone tends to don't really like people whom we don't exactly know.

vjtt team outing tmr.

I'm dead tired.

xx Loved At 10:44 pm
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