It's a dirty free for all

Monday, March 31, 2008

all of you get lost. stop reading. I hate you all.

xx Loved At 8:47 pm
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All that I want to say can't be written here.

Fight on.

xx Loved At 8:36 pm
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Friday, March 28, 2008
Oh well..

As predicted, I didn't go to school today. one, because I was too lazy to really get out of bed. two, because I'm really lazy. And considering that my muscles aren't exactly aching as bad as the last time I didn't go to school. I know it all boils down the same reason: I'm a big fat lazy pig. And to think my mummy actually encouraged me to sleep in. She's on MC and she said it will be more fun if I was at home with her, and she said: "I only have to write a letter right? Go back to sleep lahh" Haha. Then I woke up at 11am and had macs delivery at 1pm (an hour after my breakfast) and I amazingly went back to sleep! We had planned on watching leap years at vivo at 4:50pm, haha, but I couldn't wake up in time and in the end we went to parkway for dinner and a bit of shopping =) But well-behaved me didn't buy anything! Won't last for long though. Anyway, I'm sure I got fatter in just 1 day lazing at home. Probably ate 10 times more calories than I used up today! I'm a pig alright. Plan to burn it all off tmr. Don't think it will work since I'll probably eat lots for lunch tmr anyway. oh well.

I'M DRIVING MYSELF CRAZY because I have almost 10 pieces of clothing I want to buy online BUT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BUY ANYTHING TILL SUNDAY. As the days go buy I want to buy more and more. AND THE IDEA THAT OLD NAVY, MANDEE, GAP ONLINE, AND URBAN OUTFITTERS ARE HAVING CRAZY SALES DOES NOTHING TO HELP AT ALL.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere.

xx Loved At 11:00 pm
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Thursday, March 27, 2008
Guilty as charged.

All I feel like doing now is curl up in bed, cover my thick comforter and hug my nice big velvety cushion! Especially since how my muscles are aching like shit, and I have muscle aches at weird places which I don't exactly think I use during training =( I seriously don't want to go school tmr! I shall not if I wake up tmr with bad muscle aches all over, which sounds like a repeat of how I didn't go school last month because I had "bad muscle aches which were very painful" =) Tmr's a short day anyway! Must stop encouraging myself to pon school tmr.

AND GV RAISED THEIR FREAKING MOVIE TICKET PRICES. LIKE WHAT?!?!?! PURE EVILNESS. WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO POOR US WHO WANT TO WATCH MOVIES DURING THE WEEKEND OR ON FRIDAY! MAYBE THEY SHOULD HAVE SOME STUDENT CONCESSION PASS LIKE THE BUS CONCESSION PASS OR SOMETHING. DID I MENTION I HAVE NO MONEY. I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS. *sad face*

The 3 of us totally entertained this guy on the same bus we were on! We were going home on bus 31 and we sat downstairs. Then somehow we started to guess the chinese names of mrt stations, and we got crazier and more inventive with the names as we thought of more stations.. Then this guy sitting opposite us totally "am chio" at us and he even burst out laughing when we guess something (which I can't rmb now). Super funny. We're nice since we provide FREE entertainment ok. Super throw face, but oh well, we had loads of fun too! The stupid names we could think of!

xx Loved At 9:19 pm
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Love all of you to bits!

YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!
YAY!

We did it.
Will forever be proud of you all.
We proved that vj's fighting spirit remains.

very sorry for my lalaland episode. I really don't know what I was thinking. sorry sorry.

xx Loved At 9:06 pm
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Monday, March 24, 2008
Let's go Island Creamery and buy clothes!

I wonder which silly said that =)

Desperately trying to find an online transdesign spree to order my mummy's nail polishes but there are NONE! This is horrible. And I want to buy a top from mandee but it costs 24USD =( I'm not supposed to be buying anything at all! So I shall leave it to fate =) if I see 2 mandee sprees from tmr to Friday, I will order the top! yays!

I've been in a super random extremely happy mood since Sunday afternoon and I got no idea why! Back to my talk a lot of crap and do stupid things mood! No more "eh, entertain me." haha. Random jumping around, and not wanting to sit down on the bus home after training! I'm going to bring lots of chocolate to school tmr and we're going out tmr! Want to watch HORTON. =( Cute grey elephants!

The only thing that can probably dampen my mood is that my daddy is going to shanghai forever. ok, not forever ever. go to shanghai for 6 weeks, then fly back for 2 weeks, then back again on and on. I love my daddy (and mummy of course) and I really don't want him to go. =( He obviously doesn't want to go either but he has no choice so it's really not happy. He's getting me a webcam so we can see him in China. And I cannot believe this but it seems that I might be going to china in june or at the end of the year. I actually promised myself that I never want to go to china. My chinese is so wonderful, and I really don't want to be climbing mountains and looking at rivers. (I asked what about beaches and my mummy informed me china didn't have beaches =( ) And it doesn't snow either. But there will be shopping. So oh well, can't be THAT bad, and there will be lots of xiao long baos and fried prawn dumplings with mayo and all the yummy dian xin!

Anyway, on wed, proceed at your own risk =) But if you're a friend, at least show some concern and at least ask ok.

Need to watch my tee-vee show on channel 8 now... =)

xx Loved At 10:15 pm
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
Things you must do to make me happy.

Yesterday night, my mummy, little brother and I were at parkway, as we are on practically every saturday night since my brother has his fencing lessons there. No complaints since I can shop =) But I'm sure one day, we'll be all be utterly sick of parkway. Ate sakae teppanyaki again and then went shopping around! my mummy actually said the inqbox shop was interesting, and I persuaded her to buy me earrings for me and a necklace for herself(which by the waaayy is way over-priced when I think about it now). Then walked around and eventually ended up in borders! Love paperchase. They have such pretty everything! File, pencil cases, notebooks, cards, you-name-it!

Realised that I'm becoming a fat glutton. All I ever do is eat and sleep. I woke up at 815am, then had macs breakfast at 9am, then ate more beehoon at 1030am, then a stick of fishballs at 12pm, then mee hoon kuey lunch at 2pm, then ice-cream right after lunch, then lasagne from pizza hut at 730pm, then now 4 lovely peanut filling tang yuan! And not counting any snacking. BAD. haha. But for now, I shall just enjoy!

One ice-cream a day, keeps the craving away =)

3 more days to ______.

xx Loved At 9:05 pm
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Friday, March 21, 2008
Shop and more Shop

Haven't done a single thing that has to do with homework or lecture notes, and somehow I've given up on the fact that I should be doing them. Between trainings, eating, sleeping, thinking, shopping online, going to the hospital, it's all forgotten. I'm actually spend more than 4 hours at the hospital today, and now my grandfather is being transferred from CGH to SGH. like where the hell is SGH?!?! I only know it's some far far away place. Going there to see him again later. At least he is looking much better, thank god, apparently yesterday he had some big drama about demanding my father and my uncle to bring him home. (yesterday was a day of drama, refer to previous post) And I don't know why but I keep thinking today is Sunday. Probably because of the Thursday holiday =)

And I painted my finger nails yesterday night and OMG. The colour is horrible. I painted just 2 fingernails and went to consult my brother because I thought I looked like some monster. And guess what he said, quite alright what, go paint the rest of that hand la. So I did, and then I looked like a crazy monster. Then when my mummy came to my room, she saw it and she told me to get it off immediately and asked me to give it away to my auntie (her much older sister) who likes this kind of colour. So now, I'm only left with 1 bottle of O.P.I polish, but since I just got my mummy excited about buying O.P.I polishes online since its like $20 cheaper, she is going to order some and haha, I'll order some more for myself too! =) Happy happy happy! The U.S exchange rate has dropped more to 1.42! wonderful news =) Need to buy more shorts.
http://community.livejournal.com/_spreee/2020980.html#cutid1
This spree has a lot of pretty totes! But I promised not to buy anything for 2 weeks. =(

Going back to sleepyland =)

xx Loved At 3:15 pm
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Thursday, March 20, 2008
Big drama...

... happened at home today while I was out. My little brother (who is really not very little) and my mummy fought, like literally, over my 2 bottles of nail polish. apparently they screamed at each other damn loud and my mum went to hit my brother on the shoulder because he was screaming soo loudly, and then my brother apparently whacked her back and they continued whacking each other. What a fight. So obviously I become the negotiator and made my brother say sorry first, cause it really was both at fault. Then had to make incessant small talk about the most random things in the car when my mum fetched me home since she was absolutely pissed. At least both were cooperative. Coming to that, my brother was really quite nice to go get my nail polishes for me =) And how he hates me calling him "pie pie" in front of other people. (it's apparently okay to call him that at home) But I don't really care and still call him that whenever I want to call him. haha. And when I face a bad name-mix-up and call him "toff toff" (my dog's nickname) or when I call my dog his name! haha.

And now that I have my nail polishes, I FINALLY have pretty dark brown toe-nails again. Toe-nails look lost without the dark brown-chocalately polish! AndI'm officially craving for ice cream and macs cheeseburger AGAIN. =)

xx Loved At 11:11 pm
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I feel horrible.

Slept and woke up like a million times from 3:45am to 1:30pm, because my phone is beside my head and I jump up every time it makes a sound. sent around 20 smses to 6 different people while in a my-brain-is-really-not-functioning state. Hence, to make up for it, I'm going to sleepy-land now before I get my ass to kallang for training later.

Tmr's good friday. still wondering if I should go attend tmr night. I really cannot decide. Anyway, GOOD friday sounds like a GOOD day to read some lecture notes. Cannot afford to lag behind too much if not they'll all become like what happened to ionic equilibria.

Ok, I'm really sleepy. Might continue late late tonight if I didn't die in training.

xx Loved At 2:40 pm
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Monday, March 17, 2008
Make a wish...

I'd forgotten how...

... people sometimes disappoint you

... some people can make illogical decisions

... mundane, school can be

... I promised myself no more ponning and slacking

... time flies

I think more gummies are needed.

xx Loved At 9:23 pm
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
Bad Bad Person

HAVE BEEN SHOPPING FOR CONTINUOUSLY FOUR DAYS.
AM AWFULLY IN THE REDS FOR THIS MONTH'S ALLOWANCE.
AND I ACTUALLY TOLD MY MUM I WON'T BUY ANYTHING FOR 2 WEEKS (WHICH IS NOT REALLY POSSIBLE)
MY GRANDFATHER IS IN HOSPITAL AND ALL THE NEEDLES REALLY SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME.
I'M GOING TO SLEEP AND HOPE THAT WHEN I OPEN MY EYES TMR, IT'S REALLY STILL HOLS AND NOT SCHOOL.

xx Loved At 10:54 pm
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
A is for Apple

Hit the shops today. BUT, didn't buy anything except new flip-flops! If you have seen the state my old flip-flops are in, you'd definitely be shocked! Now I kind of actually regret buy my new haviannas (I know I spelt it wrongly). I wanted the skinny strap ones but the colours were plain ugly, my mummy even said if I was going to buy any of the ugly ones, she wouldn't pay for me! haha. so I got a red and white one (so patriotic). By the way, the NUM guys at heeren are freaking hot =) Anyway, I STILL need to go shopping since I have a million more things I want to buy, (think econs-unlimited wants) like shorts, make it 2 pairs or shorts, 1 pullover, 1 jacket, more socks!, more handbags, more tops, and I won't say no to another pair of shoes. Throw in another packet of mini toons gummies too!

Lilin's calling me! bye bye! will continue tmr or sth =)

xx Loved At 10:32 pm
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Friday, March 14, 2008
Not seeing you

I don't know what to say since and many things I'm thinking about must never be told to anyone. Maybe not everyone, but probably only 2 other people will ever hear about all these.

Realised that my mood is controlled just like homeostasis. Once I actually identify that I'm not happy, I almost immediately make concessions to myself like buying lots of gummies (since it wouldn't make sense if I have a lot of money but am not happy) from mini toons and eating all of them, lying in bed for 5 hours, reading chick lit, take extremely hot baths, and walk around the house wearing my extremely big orientation tee without shorts. (shorts are not as comfortable to wear to sleep as not wearing no shorts okay.. bad habit since young) I plainly go-all-out satisfy my every whim and fancy. Until my mood is much happier. Sounds like negative feedback mechanism ya?

And we're not training tmr. which I haven't figured out whether is good or not good. But means I can go out tmr! *I sound happier already*

I almost got killed yesterday night. And if I did, I would not even have known why I died okay. That tragic. Bought new earphones (or whatever it's called) and it really blocks out sounds even better than my previous one. Carmen, pamela and I actually bought the same ones in different colours. Was walking home listening to my MP3 player happily since I can finally hear music from both sides. While I was walking to cross the road (small one), somehow it never occurred to me to watch out for cars, and I happily crossed the road just like that. And there was some person in front of me actually, but he stopped at the curb and I was actually still thinking why he was so weird to stop at the roadside! When I kind of reached the other side of the road, something told me to turn back and I saw this van stopped right at the place where I was 5 moments ago and the driver and the person both looked shocked. That was when I realised I could have just died and wouldn't have realised how come I died. And when I told you all this morning you all still so happy imagining how I would be after I died and how heaven was going to be like. haha. But I calmly (it was all a pretence) walked away from the roadside and continued going home!

MUST CURB SPENDING. Bought 3 chick lit books (what-else? haha) from borders, ate pepper lunch for dinner, bought earphones, a top from fox, all in the space of 4 hours. Not the worse, but its not supposed to continue since I just claimed $150 from my mummy for shopping and eating and now I need to claim another $100. I actually feel guilty since I'm always in the red regarding my pocket money. I really wonder how am I going to survive when I start earning my own money. Bad thought. And mango and times can't remember where is having a sale. I'm so going to drag my ass there this weekend. And amazing as it is, I've stopped shopping online, I've become a lazy bum who is too lazy to even look through the pictures on the websites. =)

And I miss my mummy, I've been so busy sorting out stuff, training, eating, sleeping, watching tv, going out, that I haven't talked to my mummy for ages. my mummy is like my friend. yes, I actually tell her all the stupid things you all do =)

xx Loved At 8:55 pm
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Another life.

finally finished watching romantic princess. and I didn't like the ending =( as in, nanfeng jin should have gave up his stupid ambition and just be the successor, after all that she has done for him and since he already proved that he could accomplish things on his own! But at least it was a happy ending. Love happy endings, and I really can't stand those dramas which give ambiguous endings. Anyway, next up will be gossip girls if I can find it, and if I actually have time to watch it.

Training again tmr morning and then some camp interview at no-idea-where then going to catch leap years with carmen and maybe pamela and then we're having vjtt dinner in town =) Then more training on Friday and probably sat mornings. I want to go watch step up 2! And I think it's dumb that it's the holidays and I didn't even go tonight or tmr night =(

I just realised how the holidays are practically gone. Seriously. Tmr's Thursday. And all that I can remember is training and lazing around. Oh ya, I hate it when it rains when we're training =( cold, and humid and I just wished I was at home sleeping, and I don't bring umbrellas! meaning I probably have to walk in the rain. Actually I wouldn't mind playing in the rain as long as there's no such thing as getting sick the next day. And it's freezing in supermarkets too. I want to eat donuts =)

edit// just ate 2 donuts from munchy! =)

xx Loved At 7:46 pm
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
To the side

Double trainings are painful. Morning's was still okay since it was less intensive. Then we had a very nice tau-pau-ed lunch from the hawker outside tj. love char siew rice. Then OMG. afternoon training was hell. Haven't worked my ass off so hard in quite a while. We started training at 2pm. And I kept staring at the hall clock hoping time would move faster. 14:08 - felt like killing myself, and its only 8 minutes into training. 14:11 - start to secretly freak out how only 3 minutes have passed and I feel like shit. Then tried very hard to resist the urge to stare at the clock anymore until coach called at break at 15:02. I got no idea what kept me going, must be the ice lemon tea =) Then as my concentration was obviously waning, training got slightly less crazy until omg, 16:40. Coach told us to pack up and we were all wondering why training end so early, secretly being glad right, BUT we bloody ended up doing pt. LIKE PT. I bet all our legs were practically dead by 16:40 but we did it. But do pt got adrenaline rush, haha. when its 16:45, and coach says start when the clock become 16:46, that less than 1 minute in between while waiting to start, is full of adrenaline pumping =) so scary. haha. Then we started in fits of laughter cause it really feels crazy that we're so tired and we doing pt! died after 3 sets and I totally didn't know how to do the fourth one. I'm so sure I'll entangle my legs and fall down (which will be awfully embarrassing). And oh ya, forgot to mention, I fell into the same mini "longkang" as I did a few weeks ago in the canteen, and now I scrapped the bottom of my left foot which is still hurting now! like dumb. The last time I actually scrapped the side of my left foot. Then after training so hard, we had a very nice cold bath in the school toilets! haha. finally feel so clean since starting at 9 this morning. CLEAN. And I vote shermaine as the most un-clean person on the team! haha =) And we went to parkway macs to eat cause we were so hungry and I got to satisfy my cheeseburger craving! wonderful! And we should have took a video of how fast carmen, pamela and lilin devoured the pile of fries! You could actually see the pile shrinking fast. I reached home at 8:10pm okay. It probably means we sat at macs for 1 hour plus talking.

My legs are very painful right now and I'm very not happy cause EVERYWHERE is ACHING. and it's not even tmr yet, I can't imagine how painful it's going to be tmr =( I wished legs were like detachable or sth. Then when 1 pair of your legs are like aching or something, you can unscrew them or sth and put on another pair. Imagine something like shoes =) Then when they're not aching anymore you can exchange them. How wonderful would that be =) The great thing is we're not training tmr!!! ya, but then, haha. wait till Thursday comes. Then it's going to be 3 straight days of torture till Saturday afternoon. But I love you all and I love playing it, so no complains!

Oh ya, and we had this mini-kong-hwa gathering today. haha. me, lilin, margaret, zhi hao and coach yan. too bad Marjorie wasn't here if not we'll have more pple to reminisce about primary school! all ex-team-mates! And it's really weird since after so many years, the 4 out of 6 of kong hwa table tennis girls team is in vjtt! sounds like I've known you 4 for like forever!

Need rest, need sleep, need a peaceful mind.
Stop thinking about you.
Concentrate on the things that need attention right now.

xx Loved At 9:12 pm
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Monday, March 10, 2008
Angel.

I left my house late and reached the bus stop at 8:59am. Knowing that I will probably be late for training, I started to run from the bus stop to school, and guess what. While I was grabbing my phone from my bag, it flew out of my hand and bounced on the pavement twice and decided to fly into the drain. yes, the one beside the zebra crossing surrounding Neptune court. and omg, there was water in it ok. I took 3 seconds to decide that I'm definitely not going in to get it, when this vj girl came from behind and asked me if I needed help, I thought she wanted to lend me her phone to call someone to rescue my phone but the next thing I knew, she was climbing over the green metal barrier thing and was getting my wet phone out of the drain! Sorry I only said a quick thank you and didn't ask for your name and class to properly thank you, I was late for training =( and I continue running all the bloody way to the hall and I got fined for being late. But I guess it doesn't really matter cause I met a really really really nice person today. So, whoever you are, (I hope I can at least recognise you) You are one VERY brave soul. Thank you very much! (though I doubt you will ever see this) I was actually debating about whether I should actually abandon my phone okay.

THANK YOU!

Lesson learnt: Don't attempt to swing out your phone from your bag while running to school when you're late for training.

Double training tmr. Concentrate on season. And stop thinking about other things that will not come true.

xx Loved At 10:46 pm
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Sunday, March 09, 2008
Still feeling

Take all you can, and give nothing back!

Love love love Orlando Bloom! I know everyone probably loves Johnny Depp, but somehow he's just funny. humorous kind of funny.

And the last few days were all great. shopping, eating, more shopping, spending money, going out, jts dinner, training, sleepover, birthday celebrations, bishi-bashi-playing, except of course some of you-know-what. I feel very un-intellectual since I haven't been touching anything in the form of worksheets, books (unless the chick lit book is counted) or notes. Hence, I'm going to be intellectual and try to continue and solve sudoku in my sudoku puzzles book. haha. =) or think about what we're going to talk about for tmr's talk or maybe I'll just go play Wii. I actually forgot that I had a Wii sitting in the living room waiting to be played. But hey, there's no fun in playing it alone. And I really need to try and finish watching romantic princess, the tv version is actually catching up with me. Sleep will be much appreciated since the next 6 days will be full of trainings and outings, I wonder when was the last time I actually slept for 10 hours or more a night.

Sometimes when you know more things than what some people think you know, it really makes what these people say very contradicting.

Erase my memory.
I don't actually expect this to happen.
More frantic nerves than fun.

xx Loved At 5:33 pm
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Thursday, March 06, 2008
Bye to all you fats =)

Today, mr wee decided to bluff me about the thing that was most important to me right now. our A'div groupings came out today, and he smsed me a very unbelievable grouping, while I was trying to have a power nap at home before going for kallang training. And I just let out a whole string of swear words, then I decided to go back to sleep and hope that when I wake up and re-read the sms, it would say differently. Obviously couldn't sleep anymore then mr wee called and told me he was bluffing. wonderful. my emotions went on some freaking roller coaster within 10 mins. Yes, I feel extremely cheated and considering what bad karma I'll get for swearing like tons because of it, when it actually was fake. But I admit I was a little stupid, since when was there ever 6 schools in a group?!?! season starts on the 26th march. but don't know what order we're playing everyone yet. Now every time I try to recall the groupings, I have to assure myself that it's not that crazy unbelievable group, and the real one is really not bad at all. So obviously my idea of a power nap failed since the fake groupings had adrenaline shooting through me and I actually reached training early. Hence, in a very "roll-eyes" mood now.

And good luck with all the muscle aches tmr. every step is painful, even sitting down is bad =(

And maths was like .... just whack. And I didn't even bother to count the number of marks I left blank. Maths paper made me feel a little stupid. BUT WHO CARES. WILL START WORRYING WHEN SCHOOL REOPENS, OR MAYBE NOT AT ALL =) train train train. 5 days in a week.

xx Loved At 10:00 pm
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Monday, March 03, 2008
Nothing is going in.

All I want to do is sit here and cry and not go for Econs paper.

I realised how much I hate econs.

The only reason why I'm still sane is because of these 4 days to look forward to:
1. Thursday - go out, eat, shop, training, shop online
2. Friday - go out, eat shop, JTS, stay-over
3. Saturday - stay-over then club then stay-over, shop online
4. Sunday - stay-over, then maths tuition then table tennis competition

xx Loved At 7:56 pm
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Sunday, March 02, 2008
Efficiency = 3 pages of econs notes needs 45 mins while watching soccer

OMG. It's now half time and Chelsea is 3-0 up =) goals by lampard (pen) and joe cole and BALLACK. My love =) And Ballack is so nice okay! when the referee was deciding to send off lampard or not, he was arguing with the west ham players for lampard =) and he got a yellow card for that, but he's so damn sweet! He got so ji1 dong4 that the ref wanted to send lampard off!

*12:28 ashley cole scored a goal =)

xx Loved At 12:01 am
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Saturday, March 01, 2008

Big Fat Lazy Pig.

xx Loved At 10:07 pm
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