It's a dirty free for all

Friday, March 16, 2007
freaking tired

so many things have happened over these few days. my mummy was warded in east shore for 2 days, me carmen and lilin (basement3, haha) went to sentosa to apparently get tanned which i totally dont appreciate, we had a horribly long training today, had SLV yesterday... sooo freaking busy...

so we went sentosa to "tan" on wed. i was totally burning when we were only walking along the beach to find a nice spot. and we ate New Zealand natural! the white choco ice cream is damn nice!!! and when i went home, my bro informed me about how burnt i was.

bro: did u go anywher today? you look at a fried lobster
me: there is no such thing as fried lobster. maybe boiled or steamed or sth.

then it occurred to me that i never knew how those restaurants cooked lobsters... boil? haha. i pretended to say that quite intellectually and he believed me i guess. haha...
then that nite my mummy was warded until today. and thurs had slv at lions home at bedok. omg. i tell u, i was seriously dreading it becaz it was like 20% planning, 60% last 3 days panic, and 20% go there on that day and crap it out. i never ever want to be that stressed out anymore. but doesnt seem quite possible. like that day had to play xuan ba against marjorie and lilin. hey. it was emotionally draining and i was sooo freaking tired after those matches. it like having to really concentrate and think before you serve the ball or receive the serve and of course the stupid thing in your head telling you that u better win this match or i'll never forgive myself kind. i predict that in a div there will be more of this kind of matches. halfway right, there will be this thought like " this is shit, why the crap are you playing until like that! just give up la. then wont be so tired. " freaking have to fight back that thought. but apparently that thought has never won before... haha.

and training today was horrendously long long long long long long... came home and totally collapsed on my bed at 630pm. and i slept till 820pm. seriously felt like not waking up till tmr. but cannot la. too hungry.... and now i'm too full.

i studied today ok. just. kind of finished reading thru atomic structure. i give up memorising already. i'm getting all the numbers mixed up totally la. duno sth is 3*10^8 , sth else is duno 1.0067 or sth like that and what the hell. i'll just give up on whatever question in the chem test that doesnt give me the info and expects me to regurgitate those numbers. and someone please tell me whats sulphite, sulphide, sulphate and sth else.

i really dont know what to say to you. i think i know what to say but i dont dare to ...

this is giving me a freaking headache.

i promise to sleep early tonite! so that i wont die so badly tmr. YOU ALSO GO AND SLEEP OK

xx Loved At 9:27 pm
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